Still in Hospital...

By looking at the picture, the chubby cheek Ern used to have is gone! *sob..sob*

Ern is still in hospital during day time for her medicine, physio, nabulizer and suction. So, she cries 5 times a day: 3 times for medicine, 1 for physio & 1 suction. She is traumatized over medicine, syringe, physio and suction. She started to cry loudly when:

1) She smells medicine
2) When we place the syringe near her mouth
3) When the pillow is place under her tummy (for physio)
4) When she is wrapped and a pillow is place on her tummy (for suction)

Of all, suction is the worst! She cried until the face turned red and you can see she couldn't breathe for split seconds. The eyes were rolling upwards. When she did her first suction, I nearly can't control my tears. It's really sad to see your own child suffering and cry in this manner. I felt helpless and blame myself for not taking good care of Ern.

Her nappy rash came back again!! I think Ern react to the medicine as she poo unusually. Instead of once per day, she poo every feeding and it's soft stool. :-(

Ern was extremely weak and tired on Monday and Tuesday. She was quiet and didn't response much when we tried to play with her. Thank god, we started to see her playful response on Wednesday onwards.

Ern didn't sleep through ever since she started to fall sick. I guess it was the cough and blocked nose that wake her up. Strange thing is, she will get up at 2am and we are seeing this trend for 4 consecutive days! We will observe again and if it continues, something is just not right!